sad girls unite

i wish this was better than playing video games, but it is not
so i roam the internet for new beginnings and 
wait for messages to never arrive
you know who you are
(two-faced signs gestured in your direction)
some needed the space
others took it for granted
in my little box
in awe of a thousand snippets
filling the function with heart-felt forecasts
but hopefully none of it is true
none of which
but then again
hopefully it is
still wishing, but it is not


for holding that little fist of smoke
in your arms
locked for good
locked for better times
for yesterday 
your tongue in my ear
your hand around my neck
please tell me
anything really
slipshot wrapped packages
kept on a lead
how cruel of you 
sending such neglect